Oh, time in our life!

 

 

 

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Just watched In time movie. And yeah, quite cool. Well, Justin Timberlake did such a great job in that movie. He’s like super handsome! Hahahaha. Anyway, besides of the handsomeness of Justin Timberlake, I take concern of what message that the movie was trying to spread. What is time actually?

Like everybody is in a rush. Everybody runs in time. What is time then? Can anybody give me the most profound definition of time? What is it?

 

From the movie, it was clear that the maker was trying to say that time is like everything. People need time, they run in time, they need time to live. Time is like something that they have so that they can stay alive. In the movie, it was plotted that everybody was engineered to live only for 25 years. Then they have to live day to day with limited time. They work very hard to earn time, that actually can be used to buy stuff for living, and do things in life. Time is inevitably everything for people. When people run out of time, they die. They call it as being “timed-out”. Well, that’s a movie. In reality, we don’t live like that. I mean like we were not engineered to live only for 25 years and then since that very moment of being 25 years old we start living day to day. But one thing I realized after watching that movie, yes, our time is limited, but the difference is that we do not know when it will come to an end. We know that we have time in our life, we know that we have limited of it, but we just don’t know when our heart will stop from beating. We just have no idea of when we actually will stop breathing.

 

Since I don’t know how much time I have left on me, I learned that I need to start appreciating time by doing al my best as long as I can. It can be today or tomorrow. I don’t know. Well, as I think, that’s not even my job to know how much time I have left on me. My job is doing as best as I can as long as I have it.

 

As ordinary people, we know that we have been struggling with many issues related to time. Procrastination. Overthinking. Dreaming and wishing on if only’s. and many other things.

Many of us procrastinate from things that we should actually be doing now.

Many of us overthink about something that is not important. Well, maybe those things are important, but just not urgent. That’s just another case of focus and priority.

Many of us keep in dreaming and wishing on things that we think we shouldve done in the past.

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We are all trapped in three different time zones. The past. The present. And the future.

We keep on thinking, dreaming, and wishing to go back to the past and change things that we regret.

We keep on procrastinating on things that we should actually be doing right now.

And also, we keep on overthinking about something in our future that are not here yet.

 

The past is there. Back there. It’s been locked forever. We can never go back to that time in our life and change what we regret. We can never turn back to the time when we think that we could have done something better.

 

The future is there. Not quite far away from us, tho. But still, it’s just not here yet. We cant do anything about that. But, hm, wait, cant we really do anything about our future? Well, I think we can. I remember the saying that says: “our future is now”. That means that our choices and decisions today have a lot to do with our future.

 

So what is time? Our time is here. Right here, right now. Outside from that, that’s beyond our reach. We cant go back to the past, nor we can skip today to get the future. One thing at a time. Live today. That’s the only thing that we can do. Yesterday’s sweetness is over. Tomorrow’s sweetness is not even here yet. But today’s opportunities, are right in our hands.

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We never know when it will come to an end,

We never know how much time left on us,

So, if this morning you find yourself alive, freshly woke up from your bed, thank God. That He still give you just another day to live. Another time to do things. Another chance to fix.

We all have past. Forgive it. I know it is never easy. I have past too. I have some things that I wish I could change. But, surely, having them makes me who I am right now.

 

For all the people who stay with me despite of my past, I thank God.

That surely, they are the ones that actually believe in my future.

 

“for everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven.

… yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time.” -Ecclesiastes 3:1 & 11

 

 

 

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People come, people go. Thanks!

Having my playlist shuffled this afternoon. Then it is played, an Indonesian song called “Jejak langkah” by Glenn Fredly. One of the best Indonesian singers I’ve ever known. Well, at least from his songs and creations. He’s kinda good. And can be considered as one of the best.

Anyway, I do not intend to discuss about him, but the chorus part of his song gives me an idea to write this post.

It says:

Jejak langkah yang kau tinggal mendewasakan hatiku

Jejak langkah yang kau tinggal takkan pernah hilang s’lalu

Been having great convo with many people recently. Never thought that all people that I meet could be “teachers” for my life. I am the one that used to think that teachers are only those who work at school, standing in front of the class and answering questions from the students. I was wrong. I found out that actually all people that come and go in or to my life are also “teachers”.

What cool is, the lessons offered by those people may vary from one to another.

We may have some people that may seem like the worst mistake in our life.

We may have some people that are just as close as our own family.

Some of them may be the ones that put the deepest cut in our heart.

Some of them may be the ones that bring us the greatest time in our life.

People come and people go.

For the ones that stay, they teach us every day as we interact with them.

For the ones that go, they left the footprints in our life that somehow can also teach us about many things.

From the worst mistake, we can learn how to be wiser.

From the deepest cut, we can learn how to forgive.

From the greatest times, we can learn how to appreciate life and be thankful.

From the closest people, we can learn how to share. That life is actually even more beautiful if we know how to share.

Is that gonna be easy? Of course not. If life was easy, this world would have been a better place. This life is not easy, well, it used to be easy when we were younger and the hardest decision was about which flavor of ice cream we wanna have. But now, as we get older, the harder choices are to be made.

Whether or not we realize it, we are all “teachers” to other people that we meet. You may not work at school and teach students in a classroom, but you surely are a teacher for the people that come and go to your life. And they are too to you. But to see it that way, it’s your choice 😉

 

 

 

I’m 21. Ah, reality!

Standing next to the window of my mentor’s classroom watching the PYP students running and playing around the basketball court. I don’t know what they’re actually playing. They’re yelling, shouting, running, chasing their friends. And for sure, they’re having fun. There is only fun and innocence.

*Ah, I wish I could just capture the noises they made, too!*

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well, I used to be there…. I used to be one of them.

I used to be a kid, whose mind was only thinking about playing around and having fun.

I used to be in that time, when the hardest decision was which flavor of ice cream I wanna have.

I used to be in that moment, when the most heartbreaking moment was when my teacher was angry at me.

I used to be there, where the only place I know was home and my playground.

I used to be there, where all the other kids were smiling genuinely.

It was so long ago.

When life was way simpler than it is right now.

Welcome to the club, big girl!

Where ice cream is no longer your thing. And playground is no longer fit for you to play in.

Where you finally found out that brokenheart is just like something you call as breakfast.

Where you finally figured out that it is so hard to distinguish which smile is genuine.

Life is no longer about running in the rain, but sometimes running from the reality.

Life is no longer about playing with the sands, but sometimes playing with the truth and integrity.

Life is no longer about blowing up bubbles, but sometimes blowing up at immorality.

Life is just not the way I used to know it.

I’m 21. and that’s the reality. Life must be tough for grownups, mustn’t it?

Life goes on. Face it.

When pain is even more real than euphoria,

I know that this is world, not utopia.

Lessons from bubbles: Appreciating life, having fun, doing what I love, loving what I do.

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It was a clear Sunday morning in Bogor when I was on my way to the church.. while the music was played on my earphones, I looked out from the window pane of the bus.. I saw a man selling soap bubble on the street.. I told my friend sitting next to me,

“hey, I wanna buy the soap bubble!”

and then she was like…

“what for? Are you serious?”

well, I answered it simply… “just to blow it and then have fun with it…”

that might sound like a childish thing to be wanting to buy soap bubble. But my mind flew away… just started thinking about that soap bubble.

What actually makes liquid soap “alive”? yes. Because you blow it. Exactly. You breathe into it, then the soap bubbles up… and fly away for a little while. But after that little while, the bubbles burst and they’re just gone forever. You blow another bubble, it flies again for awhile, then it bursts, and it’s just gone. Again and again. Did you see the pattern? I think those bubbles are a lot like us. People. Once God breathed in His breath of life, we are alive. We fly away in this world for a little while, but then… we’re gone. Isn’t that actually interesting? That you can actually learn an important lesson from a little, insignificant thing like bubble!

Well, I believe that all people were created for a purpose. In one way or another, each person plays a role in society that actually makes a society, a society. Then in that society, all the people work together in harmony, complementing each other and make the life is even more beautiful. As a Christian, I do believe that each person was created to be part of the body of Christ, playing each role that has been assigned by Christ himself, to fill His Kingdom. Well, this post is not intended to sound like a so-called theological paper or something, and yeah, I am not even a theological scholar, but I just do believe that kind of principle is true.

Just trying to make a relation between the two, bubbles and role, I came up with this thought… if each of us is like a bubble and has different role in community, how can we then contribute to our community? I think that we can actually start by doing what we love. Just like a bubble that is made “alive” by being breathed into, we can also make what we do “alive” by breathing into it.

Doing what I love and loving what I do, as for me is that you do something that you’re passionate in, willingly and voluntarily do just simply you love doing it. Without any forces from other people, even the intention to earn people’s impressions. Because I think, doing something that we do not like just to earn people’s impression is not more than living in a prison, is it?

How long will you actually live pretending that you love it but deep inside you just don’t?

Doing what I love is loving what I do. Because as I do it, I love it. The more I do it, the more I love it. The great feeling after doing what I love is not the satisfaction of doing it perfectly, but it is more about knowing that actually I’ve played my role. And I could even share it to people… in hopes that they can feel the spark of the spirit, the splash of the love, and the touch of the blessing. As God has firstly given me the spirit to do it, the love that I really need, and the touch of the blessing in all that I do.

Life is like bubbles. It flies away just for a little while then it’s just gone forever. Well, you only live once. YOLO! Go get a life! Have fun doing what you love and love what you do. Spark the spirit. Share the love. Bless others.

“A simple action can be great, if it’s done with great love.” –Mother Teresa

“Whatever you do, do it wholeheartedly as for God, not for men.” Colossians 3:23