Ebenezer: I am (almost) 27

Two weeks ago I was teaching Indonesian history to my 7th graders. We were talking about Indonesian kingdoms and the artifacts that prove their existence. The artifacts of these kingdoms are in forms of writing on different media such as stones and leaves. I remember one of the questions that I asked my students was: “Why did people write or build memorials?” And some of the students said almost in unison, “because they want to remember it.”

It made me recall one part in the Bible about Samuel building the memorial and he called it Ebenezer which means “the stone of help”, for he said, “Up to this point the Lord has helped us!” (1 Samuel 7:12) Samuel built this memorial because the Lord had just helped him lead the people of Israel to victory against the Philistines. Samuel wanted to remember that he and the people of Israel were able to get to the point where they were because the Lord had helped them.

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Today, just a month before I turn 27, I’d like to also build my own Ebenezer memorial by writing this post on my blog. I’d like to take time remembering how the Lord has brought me this far in life with all the ups and downs that He has allowed me to go through. I didn’t always get to taste only the sweet moments, but also the bitter ones. Both moments of rise and fall have helped me be the person I am today and I am thankful for both.

I remember almost ten years ago, I had to bury my dreams of getting into university because my parents could not afford sending me to one. I remember feeling like my world has ended because I ended up staying at home after graduation. But through a friend of mine I heard about UPH Teachers College and I applied for it. Today, almost ten years after that day, I am an alumni and in my fifth year of teaching. Oh how time flies so fast!

I remember almost five years ago, I was unhappy with the teaching assignment that I got. I had to leave my family and all the comfort of living in a city to go to a small town in a far away island to teach something I wasn’t trained for! But those years I spent in that small town had helped me grow to appreciate life and even find my deeper calling as a Christian. Today, almost five years after that day, I am missing to go there again to see my little students have grown after I left. They are not so little anymore, now! Oh how kids grow so fast as well!

I remember one and a half years ago I missed my flight to Jogja because I was so caught up with the news that I have been awarded with a scholarship by Indonesian government. It is definitely an amusing story to remember and to tell to my kids in the future for sure! Today, I am still striving for my IELTS score and waiting for the result to change my offer status to be unconditional upon meeting the English proficiency requirement. If the Lord wills, I am leaving for London in September this very year.

There are indeed so many things that I can remember on how the Lord has been good to me. Today, just a month away from my 27th birthday, I am recalling all the great things the Lord had allowed to happen to me. He allowed me to experience the trials but He turned it into praises for His own glory for it is not I, it is He who made all of them possible.

One thing I learned, welcoming myself into late-twenties is not that scary for they are just numbers. Instead, as I remember how good the Lord has been to me, it turns my heart into a joyful heart. Age is just merely number and His blessings are even more important to number. ❤

Love always,

-superriska

 

 

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I miss my friends.

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I have only a few good friends that I would share all my craziness and insignificant cheesiness with.

All of them, I did not plan to find but the Lord gave me along my journey. None of them are near me now, we are scattered in different places upon the face of this planet. It is hard when your great friends are not around. That kind of situation doesn’t let you communicate with them easily. We are busy with our own lives and we are separated in different time zones. My morning is their evening and of course it affects how we communicate.

It was easier when we were together, I could just randomly knock at their doors and started my completely insignificant cheesy stories without asking if they are busy. They also could do the same way to me, even more rude haha. We would spend the night at each other’s place and leave a mess without saying sorry. We would turn off the lights and talked until we fell asleep. We would just do random things together like eating ice cream late at night and talking about some random topics. Sometimes we would just be silent in our room without talking to each other but feeling perfectly fine because we were together. We could cry, we could laugh until it hurt, we could do those crazy little things together. We also would jog together after work and talked for a very long time that we forgot to eat dinner. Yes, I miss those times together with my friends.

Today, as we are in different places, going to different directions in life, it is just not the same. We will have to wait for the other to respond our texts for a few hours because it is still their sleeping hours. Or we will have to record our voice messages because texting is just too long! Although we don’t get to see each other often now, we know our hearts are still the same. We know that we still pray for each other in time of needs. We know that we will still listen to each other’s stories no matter how silly they are. We know that life is always better with friends.

I am thankful for having a handful of them even though we are now apart. I miss you, friends. I’ll keep you in my prayers and I always look forward to the day we get together again. ❤

Love always,

-superriska